Social awkwardness. I’ve not outgrown it… just covered it up with a bit of make-up, a smile and the occasional roll of duct tape. It’s tricky business being an introvert wanting to be helpful/useful all the time and also being a person who deeply enjoys/requires solitude. So, of course, I became a teacher and chose music of all subjects. Now, I’ll never be invisible or unheard again.
It’s not truly a complaint, though. If it were, would this blog exist?
When I was a child, I used to play silently with my toys. All sound effects, voices and narratives were in my head. It was fine until I learned other people couldn’t hear my mind unless I spoke, and I had a very hard time talking to people. It made for lonely play sometimes when I grew older.
Writing soon became my bridge, my graft, onto a more social sphere. I could imagine and play in the privacy of my personal space and share when I was ready–feeling the delights of connecting with kindred spirits. This blog is another grafting, an attempt to connect with a broader sphere, to share my creative nature and support others who enjoy writing as much as I do.
This particular blog isn’t my first attempt, however, but it’s singular in that I’ve opened it up to the viewing of family, friends, colleagues… everyone–strangers! I hope to maintain it with more courage and tenacity than my previous attempts, though, in spite of my introverted inclinations.
So, onto goals!
- Post every day during my summer months, twice weekly during the rest of the year. (If I don’t write, you won’t read.)
- Keep contact with folks who follow my blog and those I follow. (I’d like to comment at least once a week on a post each. You’re like pen pals. If I don’t write to you, you won’t write to me. I wish to maintain a positive feedback loop, setting aside an hour weekly to do so.)
- Maintain a weekly feature–in my case, a weekly photo challenge. (I always wish to photograph more. Now, here’s my motivation and another creative outlet.)